maybe, just maybe, i’m ready to date…

so it’s been about 2 months, and i’m nowhere near winning my workplace crush’s heart, so i feel pretty lame.
i think i’m going to try to date again, get out there and stick my toe into the swimming pool of dating. i can’t sit around, waiting for my crush to get a clue. i’ve given [...]

ben gibbard, break my heart!!!

yesterday, i was feeling so violently ill. it could have been that i ran 7 miles when i hadn’t really been running lately or that there was a certain couple whom i don’t really care for who got married (i don’t really mind the girl, but about 3 years ago, the guy whom i barely [...]

wtf, now i’ve heard everything…

OMG, what the FUCK is going on!!??!! i just read an article about a not-so-attractive 107-year-old malaysian woman who is contemplating on husband #23.
and here i am— a pretty attractive 34-year-old woman who is wondering if i will ever find a decent guy to date and eventually get into a long-term, healthy relationship with let [...]

i’m NOT looking for any friends here…

someone commented on several of my entries yesterday, asking me to be friends with him. i think if he had written once, i might have replied to him directly, but he sent 4 requests and another one this morning. sorry, buddy, but i’m NOT looking for friends on this site.
someone else asked why i didn’t [...]

i deserve to be loved…

i was doing sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo good for the past few weeks (no dating, just innocent crushing) and focusing on my photography, but saturday night, i met up with a good friend of mine who i hadn’t seen for about 2 months. i had such a great time with her, but as she was about to leave, [...]

emotional masturbation…

gosh, i’m sooooooooooooooo aching inside for a loving relationship, but since i really hate the dating process, i feel pretty stuck at the moment. so i’ve been focusing my energies into photography, one of my other passions in life. it feels good and fulfilling for my creative self.
according to my therapist, whether i deal with [...]

operation win-heart-with-vegan-cupcakes…

ok, so this past weekend, i baked vegan, gluten-free chocolate cupcakes topped with a chocolate glaze and fresh organic raspberries for my crush at work. i had to make it for my whole company, so it didn’t look too obvious who i really baked them for…tee hee. anyhoot, i was feeling extra pretty and walked [...]