*** o-craig-wan, you’re my only hope… ***

so if you live in the bay area, you already know that www.craigslist.org is pretty much your bible for anything and everything from apartments to concert tickets last minute to actually finding love…not for me, but close to it. so i recently put this personal ad up, and boy O boy, i got some [...]

just a meaningless kiss…

last friday, i went on a date with a guy 5 years younger than me…i already was going in with a wary heart cuz two years ago, there was younger guy i dated for about three weeks, i told him that i wanted to take things slowly and wait a while before sleeping with him.  [...]

i wish he loved me…

i met up with andy last night for dinner…
we talked…
we laughed…
we hugged awkwardly…
…then i came home and cried.
i still love him, but he doesn’t feel the same way…so i need to say good-bye for now to really let my heart heal if it ever does…
it hurts like shit…but a little less everyday…
(for anyone who has [...]

make me weak in the knees…please

what is this obsession with kissing all about, you may ask?
well, over the weekend, i was filming a short film. it was heart-wrenching, wonderful, exhilarating, traumatic, nerve-wrecking, fantastic, dream come true moment, filmfest extravaganza…i mean everything that could have gone wrong went wrong and everything that could have gone right went right and [...]

kiss me already…will you???

i can’t and won’t fuck you, if you don’t know how to kiss? believe me, and even if you do, that doesn’t guarantee i’ll fuck you either. it’s got to be a kiss to build a dream on…or at least, a wet-on (the female version of a hard on).
i think since i didn’t [...]

for better or for worse…hell, yeah!

when i was younger, i had my whole life planned out before me, i was going to marry my college sweetheart, have a thriving medical practice, and three beautiful, intelligent children. needless to say, that’s not how my life turned out.
and yet, even though i’ve traveled and lived abroad, have a master’s in creative [...]

it’s a sick, fucking, messed up world…sometimes

i’m not sure whether it’s because of andy being distant with me, the gloomy weather lately, my not-so-great date last sunday, or my own depression setting in, but there’s this thin layer of gloom in the air and i can’t seem to shake it. i’ve even thought about deleting my blog altogether, too much [...]

you gotta have zing!

so i know i was supposed to take a hiatus from dating for awhile, but then i got to thinking that i’m not dead or don’t deserve to find love.  there’s nothing wrong with me!  i’m great just the way i am…
anyhoot, long story short, i went on a date with this guy who on [...]